DO I OR DON'T I? THAT IS THE QUESTION

 Ever since I was a child, I have loved reeading stories about people's lives ... but in fictional form.  As an adult, this trend has continued, but now I'm quite interested in the fascinating facts of real people, or of people who wrote stories which have flavors of their own life.

Now with the internet - and YouTube - I have found documentaries which I never even knew existed ... and I am FASCINATED by the stories of people, especially those of my parents & grandparents ages ...

I am going to be closer to "retirement age" next year, even though hubby and I worked it out for me to be able to stay home since the children were young ... and now my eyes, well they have gotten so bad I will never qualify for a driver's license (should have gotten it a long time ago, but that's another story) ... but ... 

I have no grandchildren yet ... my oldest says he isn't planning on having any children, my youngest tells me not to give up hope.

but as the years drag on ... I wonder ... What If ...

What if ... I don't survive long enough to pass my stories, my history onto my grandchildren?  I mean, I've told my children some things about what it was like - but how much will they really retain??

And ... will they be able to convey the feelings I felt when things happened ... or how important I think it is that the older generations teach/pass lessons they learned onto the next generation?

What If ... something happens and I never get any grandchildren?  I've had 4 children of my own ... I would think the odds were good, but then ... Ma had 7 kids and only 4 of us had children of our own ... of all of us, I have the most children, my brothers have had 1, 2, & 2 children ... that's about a 50-50 chance.

So I've been struggling with a notion -- Do I, or Don't I start a blog of my story ... well, my parents story too ... well, kind of my grandparents as well, even though I never got to know any of them except my babka who was institutionalized.

I think the stories are fascinating - especially about Babka ... but my youngest thinks it a horror - but it was just what was done at the time.

So ... Do I, or Don't I???