Crying in my Soup

Stupid bathroom scale!

My daughter went to the dr (just to eliminate mono) a couple of days ago ... was surprised to find she lost weight ... almost 10 lbs. makes sense, she did a lot of biking this summer and she has to do a lot of weight-lifting in school now that she is helping out in the library --- well she has to move heavy stuff, not real weight-weights.

Well in an act of stupid, blind, idiotic optimism I stepped on that lying scale ... found out where her missing poundage went.

I look in the mirror and I'm not fat! I look at my clothes and I have been the same size for over 10 yrs. (with the exception of the 20 lbs I lost when I first learned of my mother's cancer and some other family issues that hit at the same time and I didn't eat as much as I should have ... don't worry it all came back while my mother was dying in the hospital and I wanted to make sure my dad was still eating proper).

My body has not changed .... I am exactly the same. Well maybe my tum-tum has gotten a bit squishier ... my back has gotten a bit itchier ... but still I haven't changed a shirt size or a pant size since my last kid!

True those jeans have been getting a bit tight in the waist lately but that's because I've been training the 16 yr old how to survive without me ... only two years to train her for everyday life - something mom never did for me, and I'm determined to teach my kids ... besides, it gives me one less chore to do and more time to knit [yeah right ... most of th time I end up redoing it anyhow for one reason or another, or I end up having to switch the loads, or I have to explain that 'if you leave clothes in the washer for three days, yes they do start to stink and no, you can not just throw them in the drier and expect them to have a nice clean smell']

Maybe this is just all a part of my genetic make up ... why do I say this? Because in college I was a size 6/8 ... I put my weight on at the same age my mother did (although I had my first child and she was on her 4th or 5th by that time) ... and by the time she was my age she was about the same weight, perhaps a tad heavier ...

but I don't over eat .... in fact I never really have a huge meal unless its KFC. I do have chocolate - even though I'm 'allergic' I can't resist it - and that could be part of it. And I love my toast & pop tarts. but really that's about it. I have one big meal a day and just little 'burn them off as you go' meals during the day.

the largest thing on my plate at dinner are vegetables ... more peas & beans than corn.

Its unfair.

did you know that Jane Seymour had twins and actually lost all the weight she gained during the pregnancy and THEN SOME???? I hate that! She said she didn't do anything special, didn't change her routine -- she must have been working out 2-3 hours a day thru the whole pregnancy then.

maybe I should start doing my crunches again. I used to do 1000 everyday before bed ... but stopped 4 yrs ago when mom was in the hospital, by the time I got back from the hospital I just didn't have the energy anymore to do much but fall into bed.

hmmm.

I'll think of this later. got to get kids off to school and I've a pair of socks to finish.